Thursday, 29 March 2012

Rune Draw ...... 29th March

Ansuz ~ Signals, The Messenger Rune, The God Loki (Reversed)

Are you missing the signals you are being sent?? This could be because you are feeling blocked with a sense of futility .......Now is the perfect time to clear out the old, and use this adversity to serve your highest good!

Monday, 26 March 2012

Blockages and Seaside visits!

I had an amazing day yesterday as I spent it with two wonderful friends and also by the sea - I love being beside the sea just hearing the waves brings me such peace....  Although, once you have been to Niagra Falls then a trip to the British Seaside is a bit of let down noisewise!!!

Anyway, part of the reason I went is because my Sun chakra is blocked, now I do work with my chakra's but being honest I hadn't really worked with my Sun chakra (for those that are interested it is the one about a foot above your head the one that is a direct link with the Divine) the blockage in this chakra is the reason I am struggling to meditate and commune with the Divine and write my poems .....I didn't realise how much I missed my poetry until I couldn't do it.

So to clear the blockage I going to have  to work at it .... part of the work is to release my fears, worries and cynical nature ...... easy eh?? I had no idea how to do that - well whilst having my Akashic records read on Saturday the answer came through.....

Around my candle on my Imbolc altar I had an offering of mini chocolate eggs ..... and I asked my Record Keeper how to best dispose of them and the answer came that I was to take them to the seaside with me and 'unwrap' the fear and then release the fear/worry to the sea............

Yesterday we (well I wasn't going to throw chocolate away on my own.....) held a 'ritual' on the shore .... they took their chocolates and I took mine and after I said a few words (no idea what - but they did rhyme!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) we threw the chocolate away..........

I then had the urge to get my feet wet so I slipped off my flip flops and waded in ........ now the sea was particularly calm but blooming cold and I really hadn't gone far - but while I was stood there a 'big' wave came and soaked one leg of my jeans ...... I think thats a good omen!

Tonight I am going to meditate with Selenite as that's good for releasing this blockage and hopefully, things will start to improve ...... 

love and blessings to all 

bunni x x x

Rune Draw .... 26th March

Dagaz ~ Breakthrough, Transformation, Day

You've come through the darkness and now the transformation is nearly complete - a major period of achievement and prosperity is at hand - anything you undertake now will require work but the outcome will be assured!

Friday, 23 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 23rd March

Algiz - Protection, Sedge or Rushes, The Elk

When I see this Rune I always think of the Goddess pose - and that is the message of the Rune - you are protected at the highest level. Know that you can travel safely!

F is for ...... Fancy, Flashy and Fluffy

Yep it's that time again when I have to think of something to write about that follows my life and honours the Pagan Blog Project and today I'm going to have a little bit of a waffle.

One of the things that bugs me about this Path is the amount of people that adamantly tell you that you are doing something wrong if you don't use the right colour candle - or that you can't possibly be a 'serious' Witch because you read Silver Ravenwolf .... I don't want to get into a debate on this - I like her work - I like the way she writes ..... now, does that make me a 'fluff bunny' - probably - and do you know what the people that give me that label know absolutely nothing about me and have no idea what makes me tick!

I know how to have fun, I enjoy walking my Path and the last thing I want to do is have a theological discussion on the merits of my Craft because at the end of the day ........ it's MY path and no one has the right to tell me what's wrong or right about it ..... and that includes the authors I read and the books in my bookcase!

I keep thinking lately about when the world was a much less commercially aware place to be.  Would our ancestors have cared if they lit a blue candle on a Tuesday ......... would they even have HAD a blue candle to burn ???? Would they have cast their spell with what they had to hand, wearing the clothes they had???

Don't get me wrong - I have and will continue to support traders in all things Witchy and my dream day would be unlimited funds and a trip to Glastonbury.......... but do I NEED them to get the spell done ????

Nope, not at all and that brings me again to the dissenters within the Craft .... what is wrong with using what is to hand?  Will the spell work any better if I am wearing the latest robe???

I work with my Shadow, I read anything I can get my hands on, I do my research, I believe in the fae and love a good laugh ......... so, let me ask this ................. what exactly is a 'fluff bunny'???

All images courtesy of google images 

Thursday, 22 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 22nd March

Thurisaz ~ Gateway, Place of Non-Action, The God Thor (Reversed)

Well, normally this is the Rune for calm and rest - but as it's reversed it's the opposite - you are 'going at it like a bull in a china shop' - being calm doesn't mean you aren't 'doing' ... it means you have a chance to integrate fully the lessons you have learned ....... slow down .... rest ..... and wait of the Will of Heaven!

Wednesday, 21 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 21st March

Gebo ~ Partnership, A Gift

Just lately a lot of my 'feelings' from the runes are coming in song form and this is no exception - so for Gebo we get the lyric ....

Give him a great big kiss, MWAH.!
Tell him that I love him,
Tell him that I care,
Tell him that I'll always be there. 

This Rune is like a big kiss from the Universe, it is a Rune of giving and receiving, it can be a kiss to heal a hurt or a kiss to show love - but you can never give or receive a kiss in anger. You are loved is the message of this Rune!!!

Lyrics from Give Him a Great Big Kiss ......Shangri-Las (great 60's tune - I recommend it )

Tuesday, 20 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 20th March

Teiwaz ~ The Warrior, TiW, The Sky God

Many years ago Warriors painted Runes on their shields before battle - and the most common symbol is Teiwaz because this is the Rune of courage and dedication....... both of which are going to be needed now.  But, don't worry because the arrow points the way of the outcome - and the arrow is pointing up!!!

Monday, 19 March 2012

I walk with the Goddess.......

I dunno about pulling Wunjo reversed today - I am feeling all sorts of happy tonight ... it's probably something to do with hubby being back at work and so my evenings are my own again ....

And so tonight once I put the little one to bed .... I played I walk with the Goddess by Kelliana .... loudly and sang along .................even louder!!!

The cats are totally disgusted with me - but I have had a wonderful evening! It has really raised my spirits and put a smile on my face .....

love and light to all

bunni x x x

Rune Draw .... 19th March

Wunjo ~ Joy, Light (Reversed)

Well, normally this Rune is all about celebration and running the flag up the pole! But, reversed its all about a difficult time ahead, it may only be for a short time.  Everything is a test, challenge but if you trust in yourself and are honest with others then you can not fail!!

Sunday, 18 March 2012

Happy Mothering Sunday

Happy Mothering Sunday

Did you know that Mothering Sunday was a Pagan holiday that got converted by the Christian church??? No, me neither .....

In the Roman religion the Hilaria festival was held in honour of the mother goddess Cybele and it took place during mid-March. As the Roman Empire and Europe converted to Christianity, this celebration became part of the liturgical calendar as Laetare Sunday, the fourth Sunday in Lent to honour the Virgin Mary and the "mother church".[2]

Source:  Wikipedia

When I was younger this was a great day, I got to spend time with my Mum and at some point we would visit my Grandmothers.   Now, I am older it's not such a great day.... my 'time' is split between my Mum, my Mother-In-Law and wanting to spend time at home doing 'my thang'........

Although I think I am going to go 'back to my roots' and spend the day honouring the universal Mother and spending time in quiet contemplation and meditation ......... I wouldn't say no to some chocolates and flowers tho!

However you spend the day and whoever you spend the day with - I hope you have a wonderful day!

love and blessings

bunni x x x

Friday, 16 March 2012


School of Natural Witchcraft

COMING SOON!! Kitchen Witch School of Natural Witchery.

Lessons in natural witchcraft written by a team of experienced witches who have backgrounds in Kitchen Witchery, Green Witchery, Wicca, Druidry, Hedge Witchery, Traditional Witchcraft and Hoodoo.

Each lesson is taken at your own pace, in your own time and marked personally by a member of our Leadership Team, who are always on hand to help, support and answer any queries.

Also included are separate classes on a variety of subjects such as tarot and runes we will also host online rituals, chats and study classes, together with an online journal for documenting your journey.

More details will be released soon!

The school will be hosted within our online forum

Our Leadership Team is:

Tansy Firedragon
Tintagel Moon
Skylark Spiritsinger

Our online forum will remain the same as it always has been with our Forum Admin Blaiddwolf Mynddbrae keeping a wolfie eye on it.

F is for ...... Fear

Again not a very 'witchy' subject but, how many times have you stopped doing something or not even tried to do something because Fear got the better of you???

When we start as 'newbies' there is a wealth of information and we sit and read, and read, and read and read until the time comes for us to put the book down and take the first step to DO something....

This is where the fear comes in, the what if's, the can I really's .... and if you are a solitary then it's quite difficult to get past that fear .....

Fear can stifle you, when you are in a group you have each other to rely on.  When you are calling the quarters for the first time you can 'stand back' and watch how it's done before you 'step up to the plate'.  As a Solitary you don't have that luxury, however, it is very easy to sit there and make excuses as to why you aren't writing that ritual or casting that spell......and to let the fear win!

Personally, it's only lately that I've really stepped out of my comfort zone and fought my fears and done things that I've only read about before............ and do you know what ....... when I make mistakes - the world doesn't grind to a halt, the Universe doesn't implode and I don't get a thunderbolt to the head .... all that happens is I giggle, roll my eyes and carry on. (I also think that the Gods and Goddesses have a giggle with me)

So, to all of you I say - step outside your comfort zone and try something new today - there is nothing to fear but fear itself .......

Blessed be 

bunni x x x

artwork, photo's curtesy of google - no authors named

Thursday, 15 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 15th March

Perth ~ Initiation, Something Hidden, A Secret Matter

Powerful forces of change are at work here, this is a Rune of mystery - forces way beyond our frail manipulative powers. In the mundane there may be gains, surprises or rewards that you didn't anticipate!

Wednesday, 14 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 14th March

Mannaz ~ The Self (Reversed)

If you look at this Rune it looks like a gate ..... at the moment the 'gateway'  is blocked either by you or others standing in your way.  Be calm, and be still and know that the obstacles will pass for all beginnings start with Self

Tuesday, 13 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 13th March

Jera ~ Harvest, Fertile Season, One Year

A rune of beneficial outcomes - or as I want to say .... you reap what you sow! ..but this rune urges you to be patient for as we know you can't grow a tree overnight ........

Monday, 12 March 2012

Ostara Meditation

Ok, this is a first for me - my first attempt at writing a meditation ........ any feedback greatly appreciated!

Ostara Meditation

Sit or lie down, somewhere comfortable where you wont be disturbed. You may close your eyes whenever you wish if you find it easier to visualise that way, but whatever works for you is fine.

As you sit concentrate on your breathing, feel how your breath feeds your body and expands your lungs, feel the air travel the length of your body before being expelled on the out breath.

Concentrate on your breathing and as you exhale feel your body relax, feel the muscles get heavier and feel your mind release your thoughts, let them wander away as you concentrate on your breathing.

I'd like you to visualise a meadow, it's Spring time and the meadow is awash with greenery, as you look round you see white amongst the green. You move closer and see the white are small daisies, you can smell the grass and feel the grass tickling your feet as you stand there. There is a slight breeze and you feel it against your cheek, you raise your head and see the blue sky. Everything is still and quiet.

As you look around you notice a small, sandy track leading away from you, you start to follow the track as it meanders. As you walk you notice small sounds like the chirpping of the crickets in the grass and the tweeting of the birds in the trees. You can hear the humming of the bees on the flowers.

You follow the track down to the edge of a lake, you can see the breeze ruffle the water, you look around you and see a woman sitting under a tree. She has in front of her a deck of cards, She looks up and welcomes you with a smile.

You move closer to the Lady and realise that She is reading the tarot cards, She asks you if you have a question you would like to ask the Cards. You think for a moment and then ask the question. The Lady shuffles the cards and lays them down and smiles, and although you can't see the cards you know by her attitude that there will be a favourable outcome.

The Lady then hands you something to remind you of your time together and points to a Path you hadn't seen before, heading in a new direction.

You realise that this is your new beginning and you head toward the path with hope, and renewed energy.

You bid the Lady farewell and as you walk you become aware of your surroundings in the here and now, gradually coming back to reality, refreshed, refocused and renewed. Take a moment to stretch and fully focus into the present.

Rune Draw .... 12th March

Ansuz ~ Signals, Messenger Rune, The God Loki

Are you open to the gifts and messages the Universe is sending you .... even warnings are gifts if they save you from further trouble!! Expect the unexpected!!!

Sunday, 11 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 11th March

Gebo ~ Partnership, A Gift

This Rune is like a big kiss from the Universe, it is a Rune of giving and receiving, it can be a kiss to heal a hurt or a kiss to show love - but you can never give or receive a kiss in anger.  You are loved is the message of this Rune!!! 

Saturday, 10 March 2012

Meditation - a ramble!

(image courtesy of Wikimedia) 

First of all - what does it mean to meditate?  Well, the Oxford dictionary has the definition:

verb[no object]
focus one’s mind for a period of time, in silence or with the aid of chanting, for religious or spiritual purposes or as a method of relaxation:

So, essentially it is a method of relaxation, and we all need to relax!! Now, how TO relax - should the meditation be guided or non-guided??? 

My biggest peeve is when I am reading a meditation and the first thing they say is "Close your eyes" - umm, hello - if I close my eyes how am I going to read the next part of the mediation and although I'm pretty good at remembering things ........ committing a meditation to memory in five minutes is beyond me.... 

Guided meditations here I come .... and this brings me to my second peeve .... knowing how, where, which ones to download, which are free and which are just tasters ....

Anyway, we finally have our meditation, we are plugged in - we are in a comfortable position and we have made sure we are not to be disturbed and it starts - the gentle voice speaks to us and tells us to concentrate on our breathing ............and then,................NOOOOOOOOOOOO!! please don't try to breath for me - I'm 44 I've been breathing on my own for a long time I don't need to hear you 'fake' breathing while I'm trying to relax ....... 

Breathe In .....................*snore sound* .............. breathe out .................*snore sound* ...... 

Nothing, and I mean nothing riles me more than this - so, now I'm totally unrelaxed, I'm fighting the urge to rip the headphones off of my head and throw them across the floor - if I want to hear snoring I'll get hubby to have a nap!!! 

So, how to relax and successfully meditate ........... well, everyone is different, not everyone will be able to have a visually stunning meditation guided or not - in fact, whenever I speak to someone who does use guided meditations then they are normally a step or three ahead of the speaker and normally see something completely different ....My visual of Herne the Hunter is completely different to most 'images' of Him... but I digress! 

Meditations are personal, they are coloured by how you feel, what is going on in your life and your relationship with the Divine at that point.  Many times I've heard people say they couldn't meditate because the 'mind monkey' wouldn't let them relax ..... what if that thought, that image, that phrase you saw that you dismissed as 'mind monkey' IS the message that the Divine sent you??? 

There will be times that the mind won't still, and there will be others that you find yourself in the 'zone' and wont want to leave ........ Meditation is called a practise for a reason!! 

Personally, I like the meditations that leave much of the journey to you the meditator, the ones that give you a brief overview but leave the little details for the Divine and you to fill in .... 

And how do I get relaxed and into the 'zone', sometimes it's sitting in my chair and focussing on a candle, sometimes it's lying on my bed just 'drifting' to the sound of my own breathing (no snores here thankyouverymuch!)... again it very much depends on my mood! 

Why this blog - well, someone set me the challenge to write my own meditations and it got me thinking, and when I think I ramble and when I ramble I blog !!! (and yes the meditation is written.... it's here if anyone is interested....... ) 

Friday, 9 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 9th March

Ehwaz ~ Movement, Progress, The Horse

Still hearing the song - Moving on up by M People the lyrics are:

"Movin' on up. Nothing can stop me.
Moving on up. You're moving on out.
Time to break free. Nothing can stop me"

And that's what this rune is all about movement and progression and with any change something has to give for the change to take place - without change things will become stagnant and stale, so be assured this is a change for the good!

E is for ...... Esbats

Well, for this weeks E I had a bit of a OMGoodness moment - the brain turned to mush and I just couldn't think of a thing ........ so I sat here and thought and thought (it really hurt and I'm surprised you didn't smell the burning rubber) when I remembered that when I first started I had no idea what an Esbat was - and how in the world did that differ from a Sabbat ........ so, here is my E blog ....

Esbats..... what is an Esbat, well according to Janet and Stewart Farrar it's an opportunity for a "love feast, healing work, psychic training and all."

Many following our Path believe that the Esbat is the ritual observance of the Full Moons, and as there are 13 Full Moons in a year this is 13 celebrations .... hey any reason for cake is a good reason right???

All the Full Moons have names:

Wolf Moon: January
Storm Moon:  February
Chaste Moon: March
Seed Moon: April 
Hare Moon: May 
Mead Moon June 
Hay Moon: July
Corn Moon: August
Harvest Moon: September
Blood Moon: October
Snow Moon: November 
                                                   Cold Moon: December
                                                   Blue Moon: Second Full Moon of Any Calendar Month

As with most things on this Path, there have been different names for the Moons but these are the ones that I use .... My personal favourite is Hare Moon :) 

Now, I believe that Esbat is held with the intention of harnessing the Moon's energy and using it in spell and magickal workings.  This the time when you would attract, banish, protect and work on yourself.  You would use the Esbat to 'power' your crystals etc by leaving them in the light of the Full Moon. 

Part of the Charge of the Goddess says "  Whenever ye have need of anything, once in the month, and better it be when the moon is full," which seems to indicate to me that the Esbat has long been used for magickal work .... ok the charge also goes on to say "and ye shall dance, sing, feast, make music and love," which is full circle to where I started this with the definition of Janet and Stewart Farrar ........ 

love and blessings to all

bunni x x x

Sources:  The Witches Way - Janet and Stewart Farrar 

Thursday, 8 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 8th March

Odin's Rune ~ The Unknowable, The Divine, Odin

*blank Rune*

This is the Rune of total trust, the leap of faith Rune - all is as it should be in the hands of the Divine and nothing less than total trust and faith is required.....

Wednesday, 7 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 7th March

Algiz - Protection, Sedge or Rushes, The Elk

When I see this Rune I always think of the Goddess pose - and that is the message of the Rune - you are protected at the highest level. Know that you can travel safely!

Tuesday, 6 March 2012

I got a job....

How very apt was the Rune draw today - I've got a job, new beginning and a successful completion to the round and round of interviews!!

So, I shall be working again and all it took was a little hard work, dedication and a good ol' fashioned melt-down!!!

I guess the lesson here was for me to get angry - to stop just taking everything that was being thrown at me and to say "Hey I don't deserve this" because as soon as I had the meltdown things started to feel better

I know that I question my gut instincts a lot - but through out this whole interview process they didn't let me down .... even when I was being my most 'positive' I knew when things weren't right I guess (again) that you can't fake positiveness and expect the Divine to fall for it.........

I have come so far and in a relatively small space of time ... I started following this Path formally on 15th January 2010 ... and when I look back on pictures of that time - I do not recognise myself - not only do I no longer look like that, but I no longer feel the way I did then ........

That period was very dark for me on an emotional level - I'd just snapped my Achilles tendon and was bed-bound, my relationships with my children and my hubby were nothing like they are now (although we loved each other we couldn't speak to each other and we certainly didn't share any thing). 

Following my Path is not always easy, it's not all Unicorns and Rainbows (love that saying thank you Hippy!) but it's the best thing ever and brings me so much joy! 

love and blessings to all 

bunni x x x 

Rune Draw .... 6th March

Inguz ~ Fertility, New Beginnings, Ing, The Hero God

This rune has two images but the meanings are the same - the successful completion to any beginning.... a new life, a new path, an overcoming of the obstacles that have barred your way!!

If you look at the first image - you will see that Inguz is made up of two Gebo's - and Gebo's message is one of partnership and gifts .....

Monday, 5 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 5th March

Ansuz ~ Signals, Messenger Rune, The God Loki

Are you open to receiving?? Messages, gifts even warnings?? Time now to expect the unexpected - the message, gift is always a call to a new life!!!

Sunday, 4 March 2012

The Enchanted Map Oracle Cards - Colette Baron-Reid - Review

*blurb from the back of the box* 

Imagine ..... between the visible and the unseen is a guiding force that some call Spirit, the Holy Will, the Divine, the Field or Consciousness. Using this card deck by Colette Baron-Reid will connect you to that larger Consciousness and guide you as you travel along on the journey of your life. The themes of these cards represent some of the places you'll visit, the conditions you many encounter and the allies and challengers you'll meet as you navigate a metaphoric map of your life's journey..... The Enchanted Map Oracle cards were created in order to empower you to understand the story of your fate, destiny and free will; iand allow you to chart a course to live a life of deep purpose, true prosperity and vibrant love.

What can I say - I am in love with this cards - the artwork is simple and stunning (artist is Jena DellaGrottaglia and you can check out more of her work here) and yet again Colette Baron-Reid ** has come up with a set of cards that don't just talk to me - they sing ......

Colette has a way of writing that encourages you to think, feel and interact with the deck. Each card has an upright and reversed meaning, which is personally speaking my favourite way of reading the cards anyway because as we know nothing is 100% light or dark but a balance of the two.

The cards themselves are easy to handle with a gilt edge that gives them a 'royal' feel ... each card is numbered, which makes it easier to find in the accompanying handbook and there are 54 cards in the pack. The back of the card is the same upright or reversed.

All of the cards have a 'title' be it Intention or Ghostlands

I would recommend this deck to Beginner's and experienced readers alike - these cards are not as 'heavy' as some decks where you have to know your history / mythology and equally they are not just 'fluff'.

I will probably come back and review this deck again as I work with them more - but on first impressions I'd give them a 10

** Other Oracle decks by Colette Baron-Reid : Wisdom of Avalon and Wisdom of the Hidden Realm

*Trigger warning - outpouring of emotion*

Today is gloomy, wet and horrible - it's a total opposite of yesterday which was bright, dry and wonderful - and tbh it couldn't be a greater message of BALANCE if it tried!!

I have been all over the place emotionally lately, I've been on the slope heading for the depression and pills and i've had moments of sheer ecstasy when something has happened that has fired me up and got me loving my life again - but it's been extremes!

I am hoping that as we draw closer to Ostara and the time for new beginnings and new growth that the time for extremes will come to a natural end and that it will be, if not calm sailing, then at least smoother .... but, that's not for me to know and I'm more than happy with that!!!

Today I find myself in a pensive mood - the weather is not conducive to going out (and lack of money prevents it anyway) I think I am going to be housebound - so may as well make it the happiest house that I can :) ....

I want a job - I am struggling not to cry today - I don't know what more I can do and I know that it's "not in my hands" but I'm at a loss today to work (haha no pun intended)  out just what I need to do to get employed!

Think this has hit home harder as hubby packs his bag to go into hospital for an operation tomorrow - two weeks of him not being at work and the shock that if his recuperation lasts longer we are Fooked with the mortgage payment and no payment means we could get repossessed (admittedly this is the first ever payment we may ever miss - but that doesn't make it easier for me)

I am unhappy, I am grumpy, I am totally and utterly pissed off with trying to present a positive and happy face to the world!!

Do I have faith that Goddess has some exciting plan for me in the future???  - do I believe that this is some kind of Divine test???  ... if it is it's a pretty poor one - if someone doubts themselves and what they see and hear then sending them a series of faith based tests is like sending a blind man to see fireworks - or putting an ashtray on a motorbike - ineffectual and pointless........ because all it is doing is making me feel that I am playing a game .......

All I want is to earn a wage, to pay my way through life without having to rely on someone else for the pennies in my purse - is that too much to ask???

I'm done - whether it's God, Goddess or just an unknown Divine - i've called, I've asked, I've pleaded and I've begged .... and i've got nothing ......... what's the point of going on???

I keep getting told "it's not personal" but I'm not doing an exam where the answer is X - i'm doing interviews where I am 'selling' myself and I'm being rejected over and over and over again - how the hell is that not personal - sheesh even Jesus was only denied three times ............

I'm sorry to put this here - I was just going to type it all out and then delete it and I may still do that - do I want feedback - do I want my hand held and be told "it will all work out for the best" or do I want someone to sit with me and commiserate about how rotten it all is and how i'm right and everything /body is wrong ........ no ......... I want a job!

Does having a job define me as a person ......... yes it does .... it makes me feel worthwhile, it gives me a sense of purpose, a reason to get up in the morning!  Is that right, probably not - I should probably be more defined by being a mother, grandmother, wife, friend or sister - but working is what I do ... I have a strong work ethic - I can't sit around doing nothing - housework bores me ... yes I love a clean, tidy house but to get from mess to tidy holds no joy for me - and sitting all day on FB or playing games - as an evenings entertainment it's fun and whiles away the hours before bed but ...... all day everyday.......... my idea of hell!

BALANCE - I need work to balance my recreational pass times - I need recreational pursuits to balance work - take one away from the other and I lose myself ... I lose all sense of self-worth ... I lose all my drive ..........

I've got a headache now.....

I'm angry today, I want to shout and swear, I want to smoke and drink myself into oblivion ..... I want to give up, walk away and say to hell in a handbasket to everything ........ I want to cry

But, when I read that sentence - my heart hurts (like indigestion) ....... I want to have faith, I want to believe that all will be well and that I am doing exactly what I need to be doing to manifest my reality - I just wish I could 'cut a break'

44 years of self-doubt, low self-esteem and feeling like poo - is not going to go away by facing interview after interview after interview and failing each one ......... if there IS a lesson to be learned - well sorry, but the Divine is going about this one the wrong way, because each rejection reinforces my feelings of inadequacies and IF the lesson is not going to be learnt until I feel that I am a worthwhile individual then this is gonna be a long , long lifetime of hurt and failure - at 44 I still have at least 30 years of a working life to keep being rejected from .....

I'm a good and loyal friend, I'm a devoted daughter and mother and grandmother - I'm there through thick and thin, I will support and love my 'family' 100% - in that respect I know my worth, I know I love - I don't cheat, steal, murder or do bad things, if my only 'crime' is not to love myself then yep i'm guilty - but I actually love myself (and understand myself) more now than I ever have before ...... which I guess is why I am railing against this lesson - well not so much the lesson as the WAY it's being taught to me - it makes no sense to teach a a doubter they are worthy by continuous rejection!?!

To post or not to post ............ ??

Rune Draw .... 4th March

Sowelu ~ Wholeness, Life Force, The Sun's Energy

Wholeness is the Spiritual Warriors quest and yet what you are striving to become is what you already are. Sowelu is a Rune of great power and marks a time of regeneration - all is as is should be and all will be well!

Saturday, 3 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 3rd March

Hagalaz ~ Disruption, Elemental Power, Hail

Change, freedom, invention and liberation - this Rune is all about breaking free and about events totally beyond your control.... Disruption takes many forms, but be of heart your inner strength, your will and your faith will support you and guide you as you grow ... and Hagalaz and the Universe are demanding that you do indeed grow!!!

Ostara Altar

This morning I have been inspired to put my Ostara Altar up - for no other reason than the Sun is shining and I feel lighter and brighter than I have for a long time ..... so here are the pictures.....

Full Altar 

Close up of Bunni .....(well I had too) 

Distance Shot - before Bunni was added! 

love and blessings to all

bunni x x x

Friday, 2 March 2012

Rune Draw .... 2nd March

Wunjo ~ Joy, Light 

Fly the flag, put out the bunting!! - Every cloud has a silver lining and the light is now piercing the clouds that have been surrounding you. The obstacle(s) that have been barring your way have now been removed and you are feeling lighter and full of energy....

E is for ...... Empath

What is an Empath, well Wikipedia says "Empathy is the capacity to recognize and, to some extent, share feelings (such as sadness or happiness) that are being experienced by another sentient or semi-sentient being." 

And any Charmed fans will remember Prue being infected by the Warlock with the 'curse of Empathy' and then later on Phoebes' powers growing into her Emphatic ability .........

So, with that definition and TV's portrayal of Empathy .... if someone around you is happy - then you feel happy, if someone is sad - then you feel sad! Easy peasy .... well, no it's not that easy...... Empath's don't have to be around you and see you smiling, they don't have to see someone cry and if only it were just the two emotions, but an Empath can pick up on any emotion even if the room is empty!

I know of Empath's that can be affected by moods on Facebook, if someone is having a truly bad day and the Empath is not shielded then it's not unheard of for the Empath to head to their bed with migraines, bad stomachs and a general feeling of unwellness.....

It's not only people that an Empath will be affected by, places can affect them too.

There is a great blog written by a wonderful Witch here - Wiccan Moonsong taught me how to shield and how to use my abilities, I am still learning and still growing but at least I finally got to give my feelings a name and not just worry that I was just an 'oversensitive crybaby'!!

Thursday, 1 March 2012

Happy St David's Day / Dydd Gwyl Dewi Sant

Happy St David's day to all my Welsh readers  

"Saint David (c. 500–589) (Welsh: Dewi Sant) was a Welsh Bishop during the 6th century; he was later regarded as a saint and as the patron saint of Wales. David was a native of Wales, and a relatively large amount of information is known about his life. However, his birth date is still uncertain, as suggestions range from 462 to 512. "

It's been a wonderful Spring day here - it started as a foggy, grey day but has turned into a lovely, sunny day and it's a day that I have always associated with the beginning of Spring!  Maybe it's the daffodils, they like dandelions, always make me smile and yet I'm not a fan of yellow! 

I love Spring, I love the feeling of something new starting and I love the way the air smells ... I love being able to shed layers of clothing as the sun returns, much like a snake shedding it's skin that it has outgrown. I can take off the chunky jumpers and put on t-shirts and floaty skirts, paint my toenails and enjoy the feeling of warmth on my skin! 

Yes, I am transformed in the Spring - I feel lighter, brighter and want to dance.... 

love and blessings to all 

bunni x x x

Rune Draw .... 1st March

Fehu ~ Possessions, Nourishment, Cattle

This is the rune of fulfilment, ambitions satisfied, rewards received but....... are you looking for wealth for wealth's sake or are you willing to work for it??? Enjoy your good fortune but remember to share it, for the mark of a well-nourished self is the willingness to give to others!